Well, I have been doing okay. My weekend was SICK! I could hardly swallow. I guess that's a good thing. Damn, water makes you PEE! I had a nightmare last night! I was trapped in the mall and all I had on was these shorts and this little shirt that was small and see-through! AHHHH! I seriously need to go shopping before I go out of town and get some new cute stuff. I need to try on some bathing suits too, but, I don't want to. Not until I loose some more weight. I am going running tomorrow morning pretty early and then again on Thursday morning. I have a 5K run this Sat. night. It should be a piece of cake. That will help out with the weight. Mondays are soo good for planning and getting your week into focus. I am going to have to wake up at like 5 a.m. to go running. It just gets TOO HOT! Has anyone been watching Big Brother or Rock Star Supernova? I love those shows. Dave Nevaro is SO HOT! BLAH!

Well, I am sick. I woke up with my throat hurting! It hurts to swallow. But, I haven't eaten anything. I have 2 weeks until me and my man go out of town together!! I can't wait. I am going to try to not eat until then. OR as little as possible. Yesterday I had coffee, LOTS of water, some broth with veggies, and I had to eat some Italian penne pasta and garlic bread with my man for dinner and when he went out to smoke, I hit up the bathroom to get rid of the calories sitting in my belly. I just couldn't leave them in there. Then I watched some sex in the city and that kept me from eating the rest of the night. I am SOO glad that it is FRIDAY!! I am being lazy and watching Lord of the Rings today. My friend Mindy is supposed to come by later. She's going to want to drink because she just broke up with her man and found out that he was cheating on her. Well, Hope EVERYONE has the BEST weekend!!!

Well, I am dripping with sweat! I feel soooooooo GREAT! I have had 1/2 a banana and I just burned 500 cals. on the stationary bike. I put it out on the patio and it is humid and muggy outside. Sweat was just dripping off me! It was Awesome!! I am about to have some water. I am borrowing my sister's Iron Yoga DVD. I hope that is is a good one. She said that she was really sore the next day. I am telling you what, doing good and working out can do wonders for your mood!! I am glad that it's Wednesday. Can't wait till the good ol' weekend gets here!! I sincerely wish everyone the BEST day possible!! LOVE!!!

This morning was crazy. I am glas that I didn't have time to eat anything. I guess Hectic is good. I am just now having some broth with onions. I have almost went through a whole gallon of water!!! YAY! I am going on a small vacation in a little over two weeks. I want to be as skinny as I possibly can!!!! I am going to the west coast of Florida and me and my man are going scalloping. It sounds like sooooo much fun. We already got our snorkel gear. I can't wait but, I am NOT looking forward to a bathing suit. Maybe a one piece. Every time I think about that I am NOT hungry!! I barely ate yesterday. Skipped dinner but, then I had a margarita. BAD! Hope all you luvlies are having a good day!!

"THINK BATHING SUIT!"
:] :] ;]

Well, I won't even try to get into where the hell I have been or what I have been doing. The important thing is that I have come to my senses. I am back and I am very happy that I am finally updating!! I hope that everyone is doing GREAT! I can't wait to go and read my friend's page and say hi to everyone!! What else can I say except that it's Monday and Monday's usually suck! I plan on working out and drinking LOTS of water.

Well, last night didn't go anything like planned. When we got to my sister's house her husband and my niece where out in the yard and my sister was in bed. WHAT? I guess she wasn't feeling well after she got off work. SOO, we sat around for a bit, and then I suggested maybe a raincheck and come over for dinner on another night. So, we left and came to the apt. My man did have pizza. He had a frozen pizza and I told him I would get something. His little brother ended up coming back with us. He's 15. They played PS2 and I had a margarita and 3 Michelob ultras. I totally got out of eating anything at all!!!!

I am fasting today. I have just finished my coffee. I told my sister I would take my niece to gymnastics today since she wasn't feeling well. That's not until 11:00. I then have to go and get some groceries and buy a birthday present, so fasting shouldn't be too hard. I love Saturdays!!! I am in love with seeing the scale tell me good things too!!!! ~Hasta Luego!~

Okay, lets give this another try....

( did it work? )

I feel like crappity-crap-crap today!!! I started my period, I have cramps, my head feels like it's going to pop. I have full sinuses and a headache!! I didn't even want coffee. I opted for some iced raspberry tea. I really want to go for a walk. It is such a nice day outside. Maybe if I feel better later. As of right now, I am going to try and change my layout and look for some pictures of skinny people. I ran out of bouillon. I do have a pack of ramen noodle. Maybe I'll just use the flavor packet out of that and drink me some broth for lunch. Hopefully I will be able to breathe out my nose by then. I hate eating food with a stuffy nose. You can't really taste what you're eating. Suck-o!!!!!

I got to sleep in just a tad this morning. I am really wanting to go for at least a 5 mile run later on. A week from this Sat. I have a 3.1 (5K) run. I already registered for it and the one that's two weeks after that one. So, I should be running a lot the next few weeks. I rewarded myself for fasting for the last two day and I put some sugar-free chocolate syrup in my coffee :] YUM!! I am really enjoying this cup of coffee. I am probably going to go shopping at Native Sun sometime this week or weekend. It's like an all organic food store. I think they have a website....
www.nativesunjax.com
I am definitely going to get my nails done this weekend too! Me and my sister are going to this new place out at the beach. It should be fun as long as she doesn't want to get lunch. I know she will but, I'll deal with that when the time comes. We might not even have time since this Sunday is Easter. I know I will be spending some time with my niece. I will be spoiling her rotten!!!!

Fasting today......I have had vitamins and some coffee so far. I have nothing much to do today. If I get hungry I think I'll go for a walk or something. I was sooo freezing last night. It was like 72 degrees in my apt. and I was still cold. Thank goodness for blankets!! I really need to buy a new vaccuum. I'll have to get my man to buy me one. He will if I ask him. The one I have now sucks!!

Blah! I have my diet soda, tea (earl grey and raspberry flavors), water, so I guess I am straight for the day. Mia I hope you are doing Terrific today!!! Love ya!

xoxo Michelle

Well, day one and I have a really good feeling about this!!!
It helps alot to have friends that you can be strong for and think about when you get hungry. I really hope to be in the 120's after this! I am really needing to go and sort through the laundry. I am about to go to my sister's house and do laundry and work out! I want to burn at least 500 cals. over there.
SO, I will be posting how I did later on and how things went.
AHHHH!!!!

OMG!!!! I had the weirdest dream last night.
Alright, in my dream: I told my man that I was seeing a psychiatrist. (My parents recently got divorced) BUT, instead of going to the psychiatrist, I was going to like AA meetings. It didn't stand for Alcoholics Anonymous though. It stood for Anorexics Anonymous. And we would get together for support and tips and to talk about how things were going. There was a scale so you could weigh yourself if you wanted. (Some people don't have a scale or get theirs taken away) I woke up thinking "That is such a good idea." I don't know how I would get it started but, I know there's anorexic or ednos people in my city. It would be great to have a group of people that you could meet up with that UNDERSTAND!!! Oh, well!

Things have been going well. Let's see, yesterday I woke up and made my man an omelet. I had 3 egg whites with salt and pepper. I just ate them out of a bowl. I had one piece of bread with some plain tuna on it for lunch. Then later on I had some red wine and tossed my dinner in the trash. Today I haven't had anything. On Friday night I had grilled fish. My man grilled it for me!!! That is sooo sweet. He was frying fish inside and then slipping outside every now and again to grill my fish because that's how I wanted it!! He left me to go fishing this morning though. I am going to go over to my sister's if she's not busy and I am going to do some laundry. I am going to work out too!! It's already 10:20. I better go and get a move on!!!!

Well, my sister and her husband are coming over to eat fish tonight. It was my man's idea. He caught some fish when he went fishing last time. Then the guys are going to go and play poker and we're gonna hang out. I know we'll probably drink. I am supposed to be FASTING! I can skip on the dinner. I will bake my fish and then I will do something to it. I might have a couple of shots with the sister though. Ugh! Does every day have to be this complicated?

So, I am thinking about taking on a vegan diet. I know where this health food store is that has everything organic. It's great. I read this article on
www.govegan.com/vaganism.asp
It's kinda long.

I think I am getting a cold, for REAL this time. I have to get some sinus medicine today. I really like Tylenol Sinus. I really need to stay away from anyting that makes me drowsy. Maybe I'll spend the day tomorrow on the couch with my man and we can watch movies all day. Except for the shopping that I need to do in the morning.

I guess if I am going to go without food until I HAVE to eat, it needs to be something really low cal. and low fat. So, if my body does store it, it won't be that bad. I don't think that baked whiting is too bad. Maybe some steamed veggies. Broccoli is really low cal. BLAH! This post has been entertaining.......

So, I get to my aunt and uncle's last night and I can smell the bell peppers cooking as soon as I get out of the car! We talked for a bit out on the patio and then it was time to eat. These peppers are HUGE!! My niece was there and I got her plate. I gave her 1/2 a pepper and I had the other 1/2. They kinda fell apart and these things were sooo huge that no one really said anything about me eating only 1/2. There was rice and hamburger inside. All I could think of was "is this lean ground beef?". Then my aunt brings me this big piece of butered bread. Mid-way through I went to the bathroom and I couldn't help but try to purge. I COULDN'T get up anything but a SMALL amount. Then I went back to the table to eat 3/4 of my bread. I left a little of the pepper also. UHG! I felt soooooooooo full and FAT!!! I am definitely going to be fasting as long as possible.

I AM sore from exercising to two different videos. One was cardio and kickboxing and one was sculpting. They are from BeachBody.com Power 90. They're pretty good. I just had a cup of coffee and I think I am going to have another...

So, tonight is the dinner with my aunt and uncle. I think I am coming down with something ;] I am going to exercise to two different tapes today and then shower before I go later on. I am going to bring a salad over, fill up of lots of salad, and try to eat the veggies, and maybe sample tiny bites, chew alot before swallowing, drink lots of ice-water with lemon, and maybe scatter out my food so it looks like I ate most of it. I really hopes this works. At least I'll get in alot of exercise before hand...

So, my friend that happens to be a male friend of mine, wants to have a pool party. I don't own a swimsuit!! I am not ready. It is supposed to get to the mid 70's today. That really sux! I am gonna have to kick this thing in hyperdrive!! I have been exercising alot lately. Hopefully that will help. I am going to the track later on today with my sister and her husband. I think it would do them both good to get into jogging more, but, I really don't care what they do, as long as I can do what I want. I have so much to do today. I got invited to eat at my aunt and uncle's house. They are having stuffed peppers. ummm, they never invite me so I said okay. I really don't want to purge at their house but, I don't want to eat what they're having. AHHH!

So, I got on the scale this morning and it said 132.4!! I totally skipped 133! I had a blast in St. Augusting. We got Wendy's on the way to the hotel instead. I got a grilled chicken sandwich but, I didn't eat the bread and a large diet coke. We did get wine, but, hey, they don't sell diet wine and I had a lot of fun!!! ;)

The next day we walked alot!!! Lite lunch. I had a bad dinner but, I purged it. I have been doing that alot lately if I am forced to eat with my man. I don't want him to know or suspect anything so I eat then purge. Oh, well. Whatever it takes!! I was thinking about trying to learn Italian. My man is Italian but doesn't speak it. I think it would be soooo sexy to wisper something to him in Italian. OR maybe we can learn it together. ????? Well, I need to go to my sister's house and do a load of laundry and get some exercise done.

Michelle

I am going to do a workout video as soon as I read my friend's page. I have to pack and clean up a little around the house. I had some coffee so far and I am thinking about making some soup for lunch. I have some pearl onions and chopped broccoli. I will put that in some chicken broth. Not too bad. My man wants to get dinner on the way to the hotel and a bottle of wine. I am okay with the wine but, he wants to get Taco Bell. Ummmm, no!!!!!!! I will have to look up some nutritional information on them. But, right now I need to exercise before the day slips away and it gets too crazy and I am rushing around. Oh, on Live with Regis and Kelly, Gisele Bundchen (sp?) is on. She is so skinny and hot!!!

Well, I have been up for a while and I haven't eaten anything yet. I am thinking about having some egg whites on a piece of toast or just some cereal. I am going on a run in about an hour. I want to go for 5 miles. I have some tunes to listen to. I told Pomie that I would cook him dinner tonight. Why did I do that??? I have no idea what I will make. I have the day to think about it. I need to go eat something so it can digest a bit before I run. I need to take all my viatmins also. Well, I guess I will be back in a little bit.